Well, I've decided to revive the blog... for tonight. It's been more than a year since I posted and, to be really honest, I haven't really missed it. It was great when I was in Boston and away from so many friends and my family, but now it seems unnecessary. I don't even know if anyone checks it anymore- I even forgot the address and had to google my own blog! I guess lately, it seems like blogs are most useful for people who have some specific purpose, or people who have growing families to update far away friends and family on, neither of which I have.
Which brings me to my ramblings for the evening:
Generally, I am very happy. I have been blessed to complete several degrees, to find a career I enjoy and feel fulfilled by, and to have a great deal of travel and life experiences that have been amazing and wonderful. I suppose, once in a while, I have a hard time with being single- trying to figure out who to bring to the occasional wedding or party, watching a good romantic comedy, talking with a well meaning but sometimes insensitive married person who is trying to figure out what I'm doing wrong, that sort of thing. Still, at the end of the day, I remind myself that I live a very blessed life and know that I am open to marriage if and when the opportunity comes, but will continue to live a full, happy life in the meantime.
I don't know if I'm just in a mood but, tonight, it bothers me. It bothers me that, out of the millions of men in the world, I can't seem to find one single one who I think is great and who thinks I'm great and wants to move on to another phase in life together. Tomorrow, I'll get over it and all will be well again but, tonight, it bothers me.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
It's alive... for now.
Posted by Jacosa at 3:11 AM
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5 comments:
hey jacosa, I read your blog. :) I feel the same way-- how is it that there are so many people in the world of so many sorts, and me and a lot of women I know can't even find a man who is great and thinks we are great? It just seems like a miracle to me that so many people get married, and how it happens is one of the greatest mysteries of life to me!
Good to see that you're blogging again! I've been a pretty lame blogger myself lately. I seem to go in spurts.
Why any man would pass up the opportunity to marry my amazingly wonderful, loving, talented-in-so-many-ways sister is completely beyond me! I can only assume that the Lord is saving/preparing someone extra-special who deserves such a blessing in their life.
I LOVE YOU!!!
I still read your blog!! And I need to get together with you again! I remember those feelings- they are truly horrible. All I have to say is that MIRACLES happen- I am living proof of that. And you are so much more amazing than I am which means that the Lord must have the most INCREDIBLE guy for you. I know that it is hard to have that kind of faith (I struggled with it) and I am now continually apologizing to the Lord for ever doubting. You are truly one of the most talented, kind people I have EVER met and you truly deserve the best! Love and hugs!!
Shoot, I was thinking what are you doing right! Enjoy it. Seriously. I know The grass is always greener, but I wish I would have just enjoyed being single.......eternity is a REALLY long time! Move to Hawaii, it worked for me!
Girl....glad you are blogging again (hopefully). I would click on your blog every once in a while to see what you are up to and was sad to not see an update. (Not that I'm very good at the blogging myself, but Owen is driving me nuts....story another time.)
I love you so much and consider myself blessed to have you in my life.
I decided that I need to head over to Sandy UT and find that hot guy who sang on american idol the first night (remember the missionary in Spain that got cancer, came home and is now cured.) I think he is your type and you would make such beautiful music together. Steven said I could go hunt him down for you. Now I just need to get my fat, preggo butt off the couch....
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